Post by sibemom on Jun 24, 2006 15:09:25 GMT -5
Not about dogs but about two creatures that meant everything to me. Awhile ago I had posted about the SCREWY mess with my two Arabs, Ansari and Bo, and since then the rumors the worry and the crazy sad ending. My friend Sue had tracked them down right before I had my accident and it took this long to get them to her farm. Bob, Matt and Myself went out to see them yesterday, Loey of course was wishing us well for our visit HORSE LOVER THAT SHE IS but I knew in my heart that this would not be a day of rejoicing, I knew it would be our last day together. I had not seen them for a very long time and my Sue had told me to prepare myself because she said THEY ARE IN REALLY ROUGH SHAPE . Well I could not prepare myself for what I saw. Two of the most Beautiful, Majestic, Nobel Horses, reduced to nothing more than a sack of skin and bones with NUMEROUS Health conditions it was very sad. They say animals forget BUT NOT THESE TWO. These were my dear friends for many many years, Ansari being with me the longest ever since she was 6 and Bo who was 5 when he came to me and ended up being one of my rescues that never left. When they heard that car door shut and I started walking towards the corall and for some reason cleared my throat, all I heard was INSANE WHINNIES If they could have climbed the fence and sat on my lap believe me they would have . I gasped at first seeing this hideous sight but when the soft nickers came the nuzzles and Ansari's love of children again was shown towards Matt I knew that the heart was still inside them the package was just damaged. We brushed we cuddled, I put Matt up on top both of them even though they were in sad sad shape, they WANTED to give rides to him, Ansari would always nudge me when the Andy Lucas and Josh were outside helping me with chores to say "HEY GIVE THEM A LEG UP WOULD YOU " She would then in her VERY GENTLE WAY, take them for a spin no reigns no bridle just them holding on to her beautiful white mane, and she was so gentle. This was the horse that all three of my MILITARY sons learned to ride on, and the horse that my oldest son took to a show and WON FIRST PLACE in JR. WESTERN PLEASURE She did the same for Matt after she SMOOCHED HIM UNTILL HE WAS WET She showed him the same love that she did for his brothers and she had only just met him. Just a two minute go, and then she was happy. That's my girl I said, and of course she new she had pleased me and again gave me that soft sweet nicker that only she could. Matt is now a HORSE LOVER , of course he is it was his destiny , it's in his blood ;)Sue's vet came and we discused our options and actually there were none . I told Bob and Sue's husband Joe to take Matt to the farm down the road and let him play with the calves. I told the vet I wanted just a few more hours if I could and she was SOOO NICE ABOUT IT. It was not a selfish decision because she had told me I could wait a few weeks, but if any of you would have seen the way they were I COULD NOT WAIT that would have been selfish So Sue and I brushed and braided and kissed and loved these very special Equines. We called the vet back and then I sat and as they relaxed from the sedative and layed down I held each of their heads untill it was over. Ansari being 27 was in such sad shape, it hurt so bad, because this was the horse that was my saftey net when all the bad things were happening in my life being married to my ex this was the animal that saved not only me but my kids she truley was one of those Animal Angels you hear about. I had such guilt about what I was doing, but when she looked up at me she had this loving thank you in her eyes. I told her It's OK NOW, YOU ARE FREE NO MORE PAIN GO HOME NOW GIRL I LOVE YOU and THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS. Bo was also just as devoted to me and layed down snuggled his head in my lap and he too had this great peace about him. I told him " You will be with Antsy forever now, and you can run and play jump and be happy, go now my friend your journey is over" This was an ending to an era, Ansari was a Grandaughter to the most Famous Arab that ever lived NABORR, Bahim Moujali (BO) who would have been 23 next month was a desert bred import and HE WAS STRIKING. JET SOLID BLACK, and he looked exactly like the horse in the "BLACK STALLION MOVIE" These two creatures were my heart and soul, they were buried with Sue's Arab Hale who passed away several years ago, she will put markers on their graves and will tend to their resting spots as if they had been her own. On the way home I cryed SOOOOO HARD, and explained things the best I could to Matt, and you know what that little SWEET CHILD SAID? " dON'T WORRY MOMMY BLADE WILL TAKE CARE OF THEM" Out of the mouths of babes Thanks everybody for listening to this long story but now this is over, I have closure and peace and I KNOW I DID THE RIGHT THING no more suffering and they went with dignity just like it should be